how do we do this?

I'm having a hard time posting anything, given that it seems so inappropriate to carry on as normal after the letter to Ashley. How does one then pick up where one left off? I don't want to seem callous by blogging about blah, blah daily life when in reality I think about Ashley every single day.

This clumsy little post is my attempt at a transition... a slow cross-fade from the immense tragedy of Ashley's death to... to mundane blog posts about life? Uhm, I guess so. Bear with me... and watch this space.

Meanwhile, there are some beautiful videos here: ashleycallie.co.za

RIP, Ash.

Dear Ashley,

You will always be my Pina Bausch-pal to me. I still bang the back of my head like a crazy rag doll, exclaiming, "Pina Bausch" and think of you. And who could forget the sound of your often-heard laughter? Never one to giggle discreetly, your intensity and energy were infectious. I am stunned by the news of your passing and I have not really processed it yet. What a tragic day.

I thank you sincerely for remaining so gloriously unaffected by your fame and staying who you always were when we were all on the 8th floor. Thank you for your enthusiastic support. I promised to email you any big news about my US-pursuits, but you were too quick for me. I can't really make sense of this and I cannot put anything comprehensive into words, but I wanted to express my deep sorrow in some way. Being very far away from our friends at this time is difficult. I send my deepest condolences to your family.

RIP, Ash. You are already madly missed.

http://www.ashleycallie.co.za/